“It’s a dangerous business, Frodo, going out your door. You step onto the road, and if you don’t keep your feet, there’s no knowing where you might be swept off to.”
So, I’m freaking out a little bit. We have wheels in motion to move our little family of four (five? will our cat come with us? so many unanswered questions!) to Singapore in a matter of MONTHS. How am I even typing this right now? This all started only about a week and a half ago, when Jon faced me in the kitchen, smirking that he had inquired about a position with a company, which would require us moving across the globe. I think I glared at him in a “NOT FUNNY” sort of way.
Then we uttered those dangerous words… “Well, it can’t hurt to look into it.”
How have I not learned by now that that train of thought always leads to something bigger than I can imagine?! This has proven true countless times in my life, not least of which is when we switched lives with a family in Paris only three months ago. Looking into things leads to more things.
But I made a decision at an impossibly young age that I would live my life that way. I would chase after the what ifs and who knows? And fortunately for me, I married a man nearly a decade ago who also subscribes to that life philosophy (but has the logical and rational brain to balance my crazy out a little bit 🙂 ) I could fill pages of my Book of Life with tales of recklessness, and unbelievable luck, once in a lifetime opportunities, friendships made, awestruck wonder, abject fear, and gratitude for life. I’ve always wanted to live in Asia. This is our time, I’m ready!
So here we are. We haven’t yet signed on the dotted line, but will probably do so next week. Then we’ll stoke the fires and start making this real. For now I just lay in bed at night for hours, my mind spinning and my tummy kind of hurting about all the unknowns. Pulling my four year old out of his beloved preschool, saying sad goodbyes to our family and friends, selling our cars & things, packing up our lives….
okay. can’t go there yet. That’s for later, but not yet 🙂